OH Baby!!!

So Lately I have had this horrible fever that I have not been able to kick... My body is screaming out for another baby... Yup That's right I've got baby fever. Some time around Aries 1st birthday I started really wanting another baby. I prayed and prayed and prayed and came to the conclusion that It just was not the right time. I still wanted a baby, but I was at peace that it was not the right time. Then a few weeks ago I really started having those feelings again so I prayed and I prayed and I prayed, and then something intriguing happen... Jacques was offered a job where he was able to make a much larger amount of money compared to what he was making before. Jacques words after work that first day were "lets have a baby right now!" I do have some Concerns about my weight still. I need to lose about 25 more pounds before I will feel comfortable being pregnant. It is important to me to have as healthy of a pregnancy as possible, and being fit is a big part of that. Of course even though I really want another baby I have these Little doubts that I can't shake... like...

Is it really the right time?

How will Aries feel?

How will it feel being the mother of two?

will I have enough love?(silly I know I will)

I wont be able to stay at home full time like I did with Aries for the first 6 months.. am I okay with that?

I think that the last one is the biggest concern... I mean Maybe what I want is for God to provide away for me to just be a part time worker?

I want to be a business woman & a stay at home mom... why can't I have that?

Can I be an amazing wife, a stay, and home mom, and a business woman? How does that work? How can I make that work?

I am not sure.. but...

One thing I AM sure of ..

I want another baby!

Being a mom is the biggest blessing God has ever given me and I really think it might be time to start this journey again!!

Flash.BACK.

I ran across an old photobucket account that I forgot I had... I found some pictures that made me smile!

^^^ I miss my baby Hennessy(don't ask about the name LOL) She Is a pure red nose Pit Bull and one of the sweetest dogs in the world She completely Changed my opinion on Pit Bulls and I miss her so very Much.. When we moved into an apartment we had to give her to My fiances Brother. Luckily we still get to see her when ever we want, but I miss seeing her everyday! She gets along amazing with Aries and I wish more than anything we could have her back!^^^

^^^ I seriously forgot how in shape I used to be! haha I swear both my legs in this picture equal one of my legs now... well maybe not quite BUT I do have a long way to go! :) ^^^

^^^ Even though I am talking about wanting to get in shape I must say I have really been missing being pregnant lately! The first picture was at 14 weeks and the second was at 22 weeks the 3rd at 30 weeks and the last was at 39 weeks. It was one of the most amazing experiences of my life and I am really looking forward to experiencing it again!^^^

HCG day 7 mixed emotions

Although I am thrilled to be into week two with a fabulous 8.5lbs lost in 7 days I am honestly devastated today. My mom surprised me at work and wanted to take me out to lunch to celebrate the fact that she is CANCER FREE!(WOO HOO). So we went to applebees. After searching the menu I got what I thought was the healthiest, bottomless soup and salad. I got the grilled shrimp and spinach and french onion soup I got a second round of the grilled shrimp and spinach because it was a really small portion and I ate shrimp last night and there are very few calories in shrimp. I just got back and jumped on the Internet to look up the calories. I found out I just ate about 696 calories! SERIOUSLY??? I did scrape ALLL of the cheese off the top of the soup, and I asked them to NOT add almond's bacon or any dressing WHAT so ever to my shrimp and spinach so I am sure it is a little less than 696, but its still way over 500. I have not even had dinner................ WHAT A BUMMER RIGHT? I am not sure if I should skip dinner or still eat it? Should I work out? I am not sure? I do not want to skip dinner, because I do not want my body to go into starvation mode... *SIGH* I was so excited this morning and now I am really bummed out! Especially because I thought I was making a healthy choice which over all I was but the soup was the worst part! SOO LAME!

HCG Diet Day 6*food edited*

Day six how crazy right? I can not believe I will have been on this diet for 7 days tomorrow. I am honestly just loving it. Although I did have a moment of weakness last night when I wanted to take a giant bite of my loves wild rice. Today I am updating earlier in the day because I foresee my afternoon being very busy. So here are the stats

Weight Loss Today: .5lbs
Total Weight Loss: 7.5lbs
Average Per Day: 1.25lbs

I was a little bummed out I only hit .5 this morning but 7.5lbs in 6 days is still fantastic.

B: 3 cups of coffee, LOTS OF WATER (I have had 3L so far today)
L: 1/2 cup of cottage cheese, snap peas, and a handful of blueberries(Not sure if blueberries are allowed different sites say different things, but I am sticking to the berries)
D: spicy lemon shrimp with asparagus and a side salad with home made salsa
318 calories for the day.. not intentional but that's what it was
I am taking a sauna today at 6 and am very much so looking forward to it!

I have no pictures of food today but I will leave you with a few old pictures that I am aspiring towards! :) See you tomorrow with hopefully a little better weight loss I would love to come back with a 3.5lbs so I can have lost 10lbs but I know that is doubtful! A girl can dream right?

HCG Day Five

What an amazing day five let me tell you! I woke up to an unbelievable 3lb loss. I Remember saying yesterday Man I just want ONE day to lose 3 or 4lbs, and then BOOM there it is the next day! I feel more encouraged now than I have this whole time... AND I have felt encouraged this whole time! I am feeling more and more energetic every day and just over all healthy! I know its because I am losing, but I actually think it has A LOT to do with all the tea I am drinking. I have always been a tea drinker but now I have 6-9 cups a day and I feel it and it feels really good!

I will say I did not do much better with my water consumption today... I had about 4 12oz and I am trying for almost a gallon a day... need to work on that more tomorrow!!

So here are the stats:
Weight loss today: 3lbs(woo hoo)
Total weight loss: 7lbs(wooo freaking whoo!!!!!!)
Average per day: 1.4lbs... how amazing is that?

B: as always was tea I also had a small cup of black coffee

L: was something I have been craving for a few days which was COTTAGE CHEESE!! an apple and handful snap peas! SOO GOOD! Total Calories: 255

Dinner was one of the best that I think I have made since starting this It was Salsa Verde Tilapia on a bed of curried cauliflower and onions!!! It was also one of the most filling! I ate dinner at about 7:45(late I know) and am still so stuffed I feel like I just ate thanksgiving dinner! The total was: 241 cals
Daily Calorie intake: 496

I am feeling great and so excited to see what tomorrow brings! I am also going to try a 30 minute sauna and pilates tomorrow hoping that will help get some toxins out! :)

HCG Day 4

so day 4 of HCG diet! Not bad at all! I am still shocked at how full I am staying! I feel like normally I am way more hungry when I am eating way more food. I think the tea is really helping. I do know that I need to focus more on my water intake... I am NOT so good at that! I think there was a point today where I felt my first bit of desire and that was when I made my wonderful fiance a yummy egg and cheese English muffin sandwich! But it quickly faded!

So now for todays stats:

Weight Loss today: 2lbs
Total Weight loss: 4lbs
Average: 1lbs per day

2lb today is great and 1lb a day is fantastic as well but..there is always a but... I dont know why I just want to see like 3lb or 4lb weight loss... at least just one day LOL but I know that is a little out there! Regardless I am happy and feeling blessed for the weight loss I am at!

Calorie intake today 490
B:Tea
L: Salad with Chicken and homemade salsa(with allowed ingredients) and half of a grapefruit
D: Sweet and spicy grapefruit chicken on a bead of spinach with broccoli, snap peas, and onions
I guess to some who have done the HCG diet My dinner was a bit of a cheat because I used 4 veggies instead of 2 but I was still under my calories and I am cooking for my family so I figured it was fine! :)
Hoping day 5 goes as well as today, and really hoping for another 2+ pounds!

HCG Day 3 Part 2

SO dinner was amazing Garlic and vinegar chicken breast over spinach and a side salad with strawberry vinaigrette dressing! YUM! Today total were actually below 500 at 403! I am surprised at the fact that I am still very satisfied. I am thinking about an hour before dinner I got hungry but after I took my drops it completely went away. Hoping this continues and I see some exciting numbers on the scale this week!