OH Baby!!!

So Lately I have had this horrible fever that I have not been able to kick... My body is screaming out for another baby... Yup That's right I've got baby fever. Some time around Aries 1st birthday I started really wanting another baby. I prayed and prayed and prayed and came to the conclusion that It just was not the right time. I still wanted a baby, but I was at peace that it was not the right time. Then a few weeks ago I really started having those feelings again so I prayed and I prayed and I prayed, and then something intriguing happen... Jacques was offered a job where he was able to make a much larger amount of money compared to what he was making before. Jacques words after work that first day were "lets have a baby right now!" I do have some Concerns about my weight still. I need to lose about 25 more pounds before I will feel comfortable being pregnant. It is important to me to have as healthy of a pregnancy as possible, and being fit is a big part of that. Of course even though I really want another baby I have these Little doubts that I can't shake... like...

Is it really the right time?

How will Aries feel?

How will it feel being the mother of two?

will I have enough love?(silly I know I will)

I wont be able to stay at home full time like I did with Aries for the first 6 months.. am I okay with that?

I think that the last one is the biggest concern... I mean Maybe what I want is for God to provide away for me to just be a part time worker?

I want to be a business woman & a stay at home mom... why can't I have that?

Can I be an amazing wife, a stay, and home mom, and a business woman? How does that work? How can I make that work?

I am not sure.. but...

One thing I AM sure of ..

I want another baby!

Being a mom is the biggest blessing God has ever given me and I really think it might be time to start this journey again!!

Flash.BACK.

I ran across an old photobucket account that I forgot I had... I found some pictures that made me smile!

^^^ I miss my baby Hennessy(don't ask about the name LOL) She Is a pure red nose Pit Bull and one of the sweetest dogs in the world She completely Changed my opinion on Pit Bulls and I miss her so very Much.. When we moved into an apartment we had to give her to My fiances Brother. Luckily we still get to see her when ever we want, but I miss seeing her everyday! She gets along amazing with Aries and I wish more than anything we could have her back!^^^

^^^ I seriously forgot how in shape I used to be! haha I swear both my legs in this picture equal one of my legs now... well maybe not quite BUT I do have a long way to go! :) ^^^

^^^ Even though I am talking about wanting to get in shape I must say I have really been missing being pregnant lately! The first picture was at 14 weeks and the second was at 22 weeks the 3rd at 30 weeks and the last was at 39 weeks. It was one of the most amazing experiences of my life and I am really looking forward to experiencing it again!^^^

My "blankday" Five

Well who has been the worst blogger in the world the past two weeks? Oh yup thats me. I have been so crazy at work.. especially this week... I swear I have lost 5 pounds this week with all the running around I have been doing. I was looking forward to the weekend but... well without further ado here is everything and anything that means everything or nothing to me this ... blankday...

Five... I do everything in my power to be the most positive person I can be because I have a strong conviction that no matter what is going on in your life you have something to be thankful for because no matter what is going on in your life someone has a lot harder life... This week for the first time in a long time I had a hard time staying positive. I am however still thankful for my blessings and know that if I keep my thoughts in the right place all will be well.
Four... Wedding...Date officially changed from 7/16/11 to 6/4/11 294 days left to go! ..Three... Working and living in the same place takes its toll on a person... paying for gas and driving in traffic is no bueno.... dont take for granted that time.
Two... After a hard week of working out... I am feeling strong for the first time in a long time and i must say it feels really good!

One... I Nursed Aries for the last time yesterday... It all happen so fast... I am still not sure how I feel about it...Sometime two weeks ago he just stopped being interested in nursing. Easily distracted constantly ripping away to look around then he started like almost fighting with me like he did not want to nurse at all and obviously with the serious lack of nursing my supply quickly diminished. I thought babies did not self wean until they were over a year? I feel blessed I was able to nurse as long as I have but its still strange like Now I am just his mom he doesnt rely on me for survival.. I mean I know he does but its strange. "exit" "baba" "mama" "dada" "numnum" All the words he says as he walks around the house. plays patty cake. Runs from you when you come after him.. My baby is no more... with less than two months until he is a year... It apears my papa bear is turning into a big boy... a toddler. He points at little babies and says bahbay... he is so grown.
Thanking God for everyday

-Mommy Of a Jamexican

WHAT WHAT.. THRUSDAY FIVE..

* FIRST I HAVE TO SAY I HAVE AWARDS FOR PEOPLE IN THE POST BELOW THIS ONE*

Busy Busy Busy!!! My eyes are wide shut? Does that make any sense? Of course Not! My hands are squeezing my cheeks why would anything that this under caffeinated, over worked, loud mouth Latina says make any sense? : ) I can see the sun beaming through my itsy bitsy slightly dirty, ooppss I need to clean that, office window. Are you out there much need vacation? can you hear me… Its Robin. My mini vacation for this weekend got canceled…SING IT…EPIC FAIL! Man I want to go to the zoo! I think I want to get my nails done? Hello random nice to meet you my name is Robin and this is everything and anything that means everything or nothing to me this Thursday…

… BLEEP you True blood BLEEP YOU!!!! I think I am going through withdrawals? Someone hurry check my pulse! Is it Sunday yet??? AHH PLEASE LET IT BE SUNDAY! ALL I know is this episode BETTER be good for make me wait two weeks for it!!!

... Who sprains the same ankle in twice in one day? Oh yeah that’s me baby! Now I get to gimp (there is a free photo editing program called gimp) down the hall ways for showings! SWEET! GO ROBIN GO GO!

… I think I want a new master bedroom layout/set/colors/theme? Ooohhh JACQUES!!!

… When it rains it pours… IM JUST SAYIN!

… My papa bear is 9 months tomorrow! WOOO HOO! He is now up to 3 full steps on his own at a time! I swear I have a 9 month old football player. And finally after 9 long months he is getting in his two bottom teeth I foresee them (AKA PRAYING FOR THEM) coming in completely in the next day Right now one is right under the skin and the other one has half poked through! As my mother would say CALGON TAKE ME AWAY! Normal Aries HAPPY BABY… Teething Aries… NOT SO HAPPY!

I hope everyone had a beautiful blessed week and I wish upon you an even better weekend! This as always has been another week in the life of …DO DOO DO DOOO…

Mommy of a Jamexican!

Every Moment

HELLO BLOG!!! What a CRAZY WEEK! I have another crazy one next week as well time to wind down and take a minute to relax! So here you are the five random things that mean everything or nothing to me this week!

FIVE… This one is short and sweet : )…. THERE ARE 10 DAYS UNTIL THE SEASON 3 PREMIER OF TRUE BLOOD! Got to love out of control ridiculous shows!

FOUR…. I have always been a caffeine junkie probably for as long as I can remember. These days however it seems to have been brought to a whole new level. I cant seem to get my morning coffee into my system fast enough. Perhaps this new need for caffeine is my ridiculously out of control daily hours or my frantically busy day? Probably both. I have said it before and I will say it again… Caffeine… Definitely my drug of choice!

THREE… I have never really been one to enjoy change. I get used to something and that’s how I like it to stay. I have a pretty serious track record of Not taking to change kindly, a habit my youngest sister has unfortunately picked up. Part of the reason I don’t like change is because its never just one thing. Its as if one small thing changes it sets of an explosion that causes a huge chain of events that in turn changes everything. Well needless to say that bomb went off and the explosion happen. Its hard to say right now rather or not its good. There are good changes taking place but there are bad things taking place as well. Some positive some negative. I am not quite sure how I feel about it yet. When I know more of the details and the after shock settles down I will have a better grasp on what exactly is going on and how I feel. However I know over all I still am not so fond of this whole change thing.

TWO… GRADUATION! IT IS MY SISTERS GRADUATION! I CAN NOT believe it. I feel like I just graduated and now my little sister will be crossing that stage tonight. I am truly so proud of this girl! She is such an inspiration to me. She always has been and she always will be. She struggled with school her freshman year and as the years went on she completely switched up her life. NOW she is not only graduating but with something like 6 or 7 extra credits. She did post secondary and her school recognized her in the business department and gave her an award for outstanding contribution to the department! Jessica is strong, beautiful, dedicated, determined and a little bit stubborn! : ) She has been a rock for me in so many stages of my life! I am beyond excited to see her cross that stage! She is and always will be MY baby! : ) On the note of my sister graduating this has definitely fuelled into my “quarter life crisis” that I briefly touched on last week. FIVE YEAR that I have been out of high school… I guess it really is time to buy a new car! : )

ONE… No TOUCH! COME HERE! STOP CRAWLING AWAY WHEN I AM CHANGING YOUR DIAPER! Aries is hitting a seriously interesting stage. When I say “no touch” he likes to get a little closer to what ever the object may be reach his hand out to touch it(but not actually touch it) and then look back at me with a smile before quickly crawling off to something else. AND of course he now has a fake cry where he closes his eyes and then opens just one a little to see if I am paying attention!
He crawls faster than I could imagine a baby could and he loves anything and everything that is not one of his toys! He is so adventurous. Not that I expected anything less being he is a combination of Jacques and I! It truly is a blast following him around! He finds things I didn’t even know where there. He makes me laugh with his millions of facial expressions and he has a sound to go with every one of them! He Likes to play with the blinds and try to stick his hands in the heat registers. The door stopper makes him laugh, paper is beyond fascinating, but the computer…. the computer is his favorite with the cell phone coming in a competitive second place! He Is really a blessing and melts my heart everyday. When he waves goodbye or blows kisses. When something makes him laugh and he wont stop cracking up… Oh the joys of motherhood! Every day is a journey… Every moment is a blessing!

Love Always, Mommy Of a Jamexican

TOP FIVE

Hello Bloggity! Busy working mommy has had no time to update the blog or post videos for that matter. So in honor of the lack of hours in a day and days in a week I will be starting a top five probably posted Thursday or Saturday…. what’s funny is my brain was thinking Friday but my fingers decided Saturday was what should come out… someone obviously has not had there morning coffee! Top five will be Sarah Dessen style as most exciting things in my life are modeled after! Those of you, which I assume are most, who don’t know what top five Sarah Dessen style are let me explain. Random top five things that are of any or no importance to me this day/week.

Five…. Hello Lost is over after six seasons of ridiculousness it has truly come to an end. Now from my understanding there are many people who were very upset about the ending.. REALLY? I loved it I thorough it was amazing and stuck to the trueness that lost is. Not everything is supposed to have a definite answer!

Four…. After having my love home with me so often when he was only going to school and now having him switch to working full time is so different. He is truly and amazing person he makes me laugh… and he makes me laugh harder. He is loud and annoying and goofy and reminds me of every reason why its okay to stop being serious every once in awhile, and just be young. So needless to say having him around less .. well I guess you could say the second he walks in the door at night my face lights up!

Three…. I TURNED 23! Its kind of bitter sweet although I know it is not in the slightest bit old it still kind of makes me feel old. NOT OLD like ahh I am getting gray hairs more…. I don’t know I cant explain it. Strange feeling. So far from 18 so far from 21. Like I don’t really have an excuse to act like a child EVER anymore like no more mistakes are allowed. I have to at all times be on top of my game! (Thus the reason for number four) Perhaps I am having my quarter life crisis! …. maybe that means I can go buy a new car!
= )

Two…. I have been watching A LOT of the view lately and I have decided this.. I liked joy before I started watching the show.. now I can not stand her she is rude and narrow minded. Whoppi is a funny. Sometimes I turn on the view just to see what Elisabeth is wearing, and Sherri is a sweetheart who generally has something good to say and I LOVE her faith in God and how she is not afraid to talk about it but also does not beat down what others believe.

ONE…. Aries is in the most ridiculous stage. 7 ½ months old he is crawling all over the place trying his best to stand babbling a million babbles per minute and definitely testing his boundaries! It is beyond fun and he is definitely teaching me more about life than I think I have learned in my 23 years of it. His attempt to get into standing position from crawling position has turned into an elephant crawl that cracks me up. Also when ever he goes into the kitchen he decided he does not like the texture of the tile so he elephant crawls through the kitchen so his knees do not touch the floor lol seriously? Oh and the best most recent goofy act of my child.. his love for the vacuum! He chases the vacuum. He does not run from it or cry when it starts he makes it his mission to chase it. Got to love a growing child’s mind!
Love Always, Mommy of a Jamexican

Hump Day

I can hear the coffee now, like a rain drop with sizzle at the end, it sounds so intoxicating. I am more than ready for my first cup, drop drop drop sssss, Is it done yet? it’s a rare morning. Jacques is already up and gone, at work. Aries still asleep, although he has a serious case of the wiggles which I can only interpret as his indication that soon… he will be joining me awake and ready for the day. I am alone with the silence and the beautiful day outside my window, truly so rare. I love today. I think I have mentioned it before, hump day, such a great day only one more day between myself and Friday. I have to work on a new video because we are so excited and proud of Aries! Its funny how a baby can do that to you. Make you excited for something as simple as crawling. However with this new found mobility we have realized it is a good thing we are moving this weekend because we have to completely baby proof, something we definitely do not have going on for us right now. ahhh Silence…. My coffee is ready. Now my day can really begin. : ) As always Thanks for reading my random ramblings.

Love Always, Mommy of a Jamexican!