Thursday, May 26, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Now on to life... I get real joy out of blogging! Its like my fingers can type away emotions, thoughts, and feelings my mouth does not communicate the way my mind thinks it. And lately there has really been something on my heart I have wanted to get out....
HOW HARD IT IS TO BE A WORKING MOM! Now first I will say I KNOW it is hard to be a stay at home mom, because I was one! Being a working mom is hard in a different way... I miss my baby! Even as I sit here on my lunch break typing my little fingers away I can feel tears well up in my eyes. I am here in an office, but my heart, my soul, my mind is at home with my baby!
He is at such a special place in his life right now, also at a stubborn place I might add : ) He is learning so much right now.. how to jump, leap like a frog, RAWR like a lion. He understands everything. He grabs my hand and leads me around the house pointing to things and telling me what they are. Moments when he runs up to me and gives me a "BIG HUG" makes me know that I need to be at home with my baby! He is only this age once and I need to be with my little bug, because NO ONE can raise him the way that I can!
I am not 100% sure how, but I know that I need to be a stay at home mom! It is weighing heavy on my heart, and I have no idea how I am going to make it work, but I know that every time I see his smile it gives me the motivation to find a way!
So look out world because it looks like I am going to be inventing a business of some kind! :)
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Romans 12:21 "do not be overcome by evil but overcome evil with good"
"bEiNg HaPpY DoEsNt MeAn ThAt EvErYtHiNg is PeRfEcT, It MeAnS ThAt YoU DeCiDe To LoOk BeYoNd ThE ImPeRfEcTiOnS"
...KNOWING is better than WONDERING,
WAKINGis better than SLEEPING,
and even the biggest FAILURE,
BEATS the hell out of NEVER TRYING!!!
"DoNt WoRrY BoUt A ThInG. CuZ EvErY LiTtLe ThInG Is GuNNA Be AlRiGhT" -BoB MaRlEy
Monday, April 4, 2011
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Dear Jacques Derrae (simmons) Blake,
Where to start?
you came into my life at a young age!
we were drawn back to each other after what some might consider a tramatic time in each of our lives...
let me tell you...
as much as some days you drive me crazy! : )
I can not thank God enough for putting you in my life.
You made me believe that I am good enough.
You made me believe that Love conquers all.
You made me believe that I am worth it.
You made me believe that LOVE is worth it.
certainly not least...
You showed me what true love is..
you showed me what unconditional love is...
You gave me a baby..
and together we created life...
we continue to grow...
YOU made my heart grow!
you are who God put in my life to complete me... so that my heart could truly come alive!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
This might sound strange, but I would have to say Aries, my son, inspires beauty!!! I say this because he is wonderful, strong, sweet, and amazing! He makes me smile, he makes me love myself for who I am to him, he is funny, he is goofy, and he is a sweetheart. Aries inspires me to be a better person therefore he inspires beauty! Giving birth to him was the only true beauty I can think of!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
I remember being over whelmed by the size of the school. You see I had come from a relatively small Christian school, and now here I was in a massive building with thousands of kids.
At this point in my life I was a very quite little lady. Not necessarily shy but just quiet.
I walked into my first class of the day, it was math, Sat down and was ready for the day to begin… In walks two guys one very tall one very short they sit directly in front of my and just start talking and laughing the teacher walks in and beings to speak… they continue talking. HOW obnoxious can two people possible be? After the lesson we are allowed to do our assignment and talk.. Short man turns around… Hi I am Jacques you seem really smart so I am just going to copy your homework! Me… …. …(please insert heavy attitude here) Yeah um you can turn around now thanks..
Through out the semester we randomly talked and eventually had a study period together. I remember on days when he was around we would walk the halls and talk about extremely random things. The following year we had a study together again, and I distinctly remember walking the halls with him while he was on crutches.
Later that year he diapered… we were never really friends, rather acquaintances, so it did not phase me much that he was gone… All I knew was the cute short guy I randomly talked to was gone….
Jump to senior year I am at Mc Donald’s with my lady Friends after a football game and in walks this TALL good looking guy. It was Jacques! He recognized me and came and gave me a big hug and told me to add him on myspace, haha remember myspace? I still have pictures from that day.
None with him he gave me hug and left and I think it was that day I truly had a crush!
So it is the end of Senior year and I meet a guy name Thomas and fall in “love” I decide I am going to school in Texas and pack up and move. While I am down there I start talking to Jacques… yup.. on myspace. Turns out he had moved to Florida to go to school. We say that if we are ever in Minnesota we will hang out!
A lot of health issues with me cause me to have to move back to Minnesota… The same week he is having issues in Florida and he has to move back to MN…
My close friend moves into my parents house with me and life couldn’t be better! I was resolving my health issues and in cosmetology school.
It was April 16th My roommate and I are were at the grocery store and my phone rings… Hey I moved back to Minnesota.. do you want to hang out?
Who is this?
I am back in MN and we need to hang out
Well he came to my parents house that night and him, my roommate, and myself hung out, and then we hung out every single day after that...
When I was at work I was on the phone with him the entire time. I talked to him on my drive to get him, and I talked to him all night every night.
After that first day we were together EVERY single day for the first 16 months!
He proposed to me after just two weeks
and we moved in together that June.
Not exactly the “clean” background I grew up in, but as odd as it was my parents were okay with it. They fell in love with him day 1.
Little did we know at first, but our paths had crossed and almost crossed far more times then we knew. This is where I get cheesy with it.
He was born on March 21st at 8PM 1987 at HCMC. I was born on May 21st at 8PM 1987 at HCMC.
Growing up he used to constantly go fishing with his dad at a place called narrows. My dad took me to that same spot growing up. Later after our fathers met they realized they knew each other because they had fished together.. at Narrows!
Through my junior and senior year I hung out with ALL of his friends that he grew up with and had NO idea that they were friends with him.
A one of my lady friends was friends with a guy named Matt and every once in a while I would go with her to his apartment and later found out Jacques actually lived in that apartment but I just always happen to be there when he was not there.
And of course one of the biggest random events… My boyfriend was cheating on me with Jacques girlfriend…. Pretty random huh?
In the past 5 years we have had bumps in the road, and a few mountains!
BUT he is my best friend and my partner and I am thankful for every hardship we have ever had, because we have a bond that no one could ever break.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
^^^ I seriously forgot how in shape I used to be! haha I swear both my legs in this picture equal one of my legs now... well maybe not quite BUT I do have a long way to go! :) ^^^
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Weight Loss Today: .5lbs
Total Weight Loss: 7.5lbs
Average Per Day: 1.25lbs
I was a little bummed out I only hit .5 this morning but 7.5lbs in 6 days is still fantastic.
B: 3 cups of coffee, LOTS OF WATER (I have had 3L so far today)
L: 1/2 cup of cottage cheese, snap peas, and a handful of blueberries(Not sure if blueberries are allowed different sites say different things, but I am sticking to the berries)
D: spicy lemon shrimp with asparagus and a side salad with home made salsa
318 calories for the day.. not intentional but that's what it was
I am taking a sauna today at 6 and am very much so looking forward to it!
I have no pictures of food today but I will leave you with a few old pictures that I am aspiring towards! :) See you tomorrow with hopefully a little better weight loss I would love to come back with a 3.5lbs so I can have lost 10lbs but I know that is doubtful! A girl can dream right?
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
I will say I did not do much better with my water consumption today... I had about 4 12oz and I am trying for almost a gallon a day... need to work on that more tomorrow!!
So here are the stats:
Weight loss today: 3lbs(woo hoo)
Total weight loss: 7lbs(wooo freaking whoo!!!!!!)
Average per day: 1.4lbs... how amazing is that?
B: as always was tea I also had a small cup of black coffee
L: was something I have been craving for a few days which was COTTAGE CHEESE!! an apple and handful snap peas! SOO GOOD! Total Calories: 255
Daily Calorie intake: 496
I am feeling great and so excited to see what tomorrow brings! I am also going to try a 30 minute sauna and pilates tomorrow hoping that will help get some toxins out! :)
Monday, March 7, 2011
So now for todays stats:
Weight Loss today: 2lbs
Total Weight loss: 4lbs
Average: 1lbs per day
2lb today is great and 1lb a day is fantastic as well but..there is always a but... I dont know why I just want to see like 3lb or 4lb weight loss... at least just one day LOL but I know that is a little out there! Regardless I am happy and feeling blessed for the weight loss I am at!
Calorie intake today 490
L: Salad with Chicken and homemade salsa(with allowed ingredients) and half of a grapefruit
D: Sweet and spicy grapefruit chicken on a bead of spinach with broccoli, snap peas, and onions
I guess to some who have done the HCG diet My dinner was a bit of a cheat because I used 4 veggies instead of 2 but I was still under my calories and I am cooking for my family so I figured it was fine! :)
Hoping day 5 goes as well as today, and really hoping for another 2+ pounds!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Today: 0lbs lost
Total weight loss: 2lbs
B: Skin Detox organic green tea
L: 3 eggs(2 white/1whole) seasoned with garlic and topped with homemade salsa(using only allowed ingredients)
Which leaves 282 for dinner. I not sure yet what exactly we are doing for dinner but I am excited to look up some recipes. I am thinking its going to involve chicken! :) and a salad of some sort.
I am also looking forward to seeing day 4 weight results if there is any! :)
Friday, March 4, 2011
Today after a LONG drawn out break I write in regards to day one of an intersting journey I am begining. Oh where oh where to begin. I am not always good at this story telling thing... :)
How about we begin with the birth of my beautiful Son Aries.. although on like most stories I tell this one is not about my son, but actually about myself.
October 9th of 2010 I gave birth to Aries 7lbs 12 oz.. The day after I got home from the hospital I had lost 20 of the 40 pounds I gained while pregant. I was off to a good start! 5 months later I only had 5 pounds left to go... Then something happen I found out my mom had cancer, I started school, and I went from being a stay at home mom to being a full time working mama. Although non of these are good excuses I think the stress got to me and I did what a lot of people make the mistake of doing... I turned to food.
Now at my highest weight I have ever been I just got a huge wake up call... I have a son who is going to be two in just 6 months and I need to be a role model for him. So that is exactly what I am going to do!